Do it and Understand Later

                  Past few weeks, I have to make a decision and it is hardest decision I have to make. I don't want to do it, but I got sick so much that I know that God is trying to show his plans is perfect then my own plans. I receive scriptures and close friends telling me that I should listen to God and follow him even I get rejected by others. I don't understand why the choices is so hard, yet God gave us a free will. I really want to honor God more then anything. I do hope certain people will understand why I have to make this decisions. Please pray for me to find words to explain this to them. I know God is with me every step I take and I will be alone with him as everyone will leave me, won't understand why I did with my choices.

                     Proverbs 3:5
                 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding

On a cold night

                   It is really crazy past few weeks!! I got a message from my teacher named Keith, saying that I am failing in my English classes and better bring the grades up soon, and better studies harder for the test which is coming up in few weeks.  I have two quizzes and two projects to bring up my grades. Please pray for me to able studies harder and able to survive on four to three hours of sleep. I had been studies today all afternoon and evening. I have to get up at five o'clock everyday to spend time with God, get ready, eat breakfast, and go to work. I don't know how I made it through over four months. I am able to go home for Thanksgiving, November 27th and coming back on December 3rd. Just six weeks away until I see all my family since they are all coming to my parents' home.
            The story behind this picture, I had three coffee this morning and three teas this evening. I love evening on cold night, dress in my comfortable clothes and lit dim candles around me in kitchen w/ living room. Better get back to studying my school.

Final Day

I realized that I never finishes my final day at Northwood. It was very hard to write what happened on last two days before we headed back to Hinsdale, IL. I wasn't quiet done with issues that I am dealing with. Past three weeks, it is really struggle for me to deal with my emotions and working in Publication/mailroom. I decided to check up on my friends on websites and came across one of person that I greatly admire. This person has a picture of verses that I forgot about what God has showed me and use it for my blog name, it is Psalm 62:5-7. I broke down and cry out to God to forgive me that I had doubt him to take care of me and my future. After praying, I felt peace in my heart and taken trust and confidence in God, who will direct my steps.

Miss Father's date with girls



I realized it is been four months since I had seen  my family. I was looking through pictures of my family, came upon these pictures that my dad took my three younger sisters and I out on a date back in February. As you can see that we are goofy looking expression, we are never bored with each other. We always mess around and making jokes. I don't know what I would do without them. I realized God placed each person in a family for reason. For me, God placed eight crazy sisters and one brother in my family. Being away from my family made me realized how blessed am I to have them. Some of my evening are lonely, and usually I will go talk to my sisters. Thank you, God for my family.

 

Me and Kathleen

Kathleen and Me

 

 

Kassandra

Kandice

 Goofy Dad

Shy after making googy face

Funny Expressions

Drama sisters

It snowed after we came in Wendy's

Heading back home

Day Three and Day Four Journey

               Hello all, I know I had not been posting these last two days. Time just fly by but yet slowly.

             Thursday is fasting day, it is wonderful experience day. I had been blessed by able to see the girls praying and how God transformed their life. I never thought I will see it in different perspective. I am grateful that I am not on team, or otherwise I will able not to cover all the areas in my life that God wants me to see. Being alone with God is hard and good process of learning to trust in Him, leaning on Him even it is hurt how He reveal sins and lust desires which it hinder our relationship. I never thought some of the desires are wrong or had sins that are not confessed. I went over twelve hearts and learn a lot by it. I was reveal that struggles that I have and how I keep going back to it because I had not meditate on God's Word and engraft it to my life.

              Friday is challenge for me. I had finishes my journey binder and yet I feeled that there is something is not covered. I read through Matthew 5-6 and Psalm 199. I am happy and yet not completely peace with my heart. It is battle through out late morning to midafternoon. Rachel came to me and invited me to go to Waterfalls. I decide to spend time with her and hiking. We went out with two team and took a lot of pictures.

                                                                     Me

Rachel and Hannah

 

This is my two wonderful friends, Ara and Rachel.

 

Morning Sunrise

                       
I got up at four and decide to sleep more until four forty-five. Then I went to get coffee and went up to tower. It is very foggy weather and thought there will be no sun.                 

I took couple pictures and went downstairs to lobby to spend time with the Lord. Around six fifteen, I noticed that it is getting lighter. I decided to try again to see if I can get sunrise pictures. Sure enough, there is sun rising.

It is amazing how beautiful the fog dissolve away as sun is rising. I am grateful to God how he brought beautiful creation to remind me that He is Real.