Final Day

I realized that I never finishes my final day at Northwood. It was very hard to write what happened on last two days before we headed back to Hinsdale, IL. I wasn't quiet done with issues that I am dealing with. Past three weeks, it is really struggle for me to deal with my emotions and working in Publication/mailroom. I decided to check up on my friends on websites and came across one of person that I greatly admire. This person has a picture of verses that I forgot about what God has showed me and use it for my blog name, it is Psalm 62:5-7. I broke down and cry out to God to forgive me that I had doubt him to take care of me and my future. After praying, I felt peace in my heart and taken trust and confidence in God, who will direct my steps.

Miss Father's date with girls



I realized it is been four months since I had seen  my family. I was looking through pictures of my family, came upon these pictures that my dad took my three younger sisters and I out on a date back in February. As you can see that we are goofy looking expression, we are never bored with each other. We always mess around and making jokes. I don't know what I would do without them. I realized God placed each person in a family for reason. For me, God placed eight crazy sisters and one brother in my family. Being away from my family made me realized how blessed am I to have them. Some of my evening are lonely, and usually I will go talk to my sisters. Thank you, God for my family.

 

Me and Kathleen

Kathleen and Me

 

 

Kassandra

Kandice

 Goofy Dad

Shy after making googy face

Funny Expressions

Drama sisters

It snowed after we came in Wendy's

Heading back home

Day Three and Day Four Journey

               Hello all, I know I had not been posting these last two days. Time just fly by but yet slowly.

             Thursday is fasting day, it is wonderful experience day. I had been blessed by able to see the girls praying and how God transformed their life. I never thought I will see it in different perspective. I am grateful that I am not on team, or otherwise I will able not to cover all the areas in my life that God wants me to see. Being alone with God is hard and good process of learning to trust in Him, leaning on Him even it is hurt how He reveal sins and lust desires which it hinder our relationship. I never thought some of the desires are wrong or had sins that are not confessed. I went over twelve hearts and learn a lot by it. I was reveal that struggles that I have and how I keep going back to it because I had not meditate on God's Word and engraft it to my life.

              Friday is challenge for me. I had finishes my journey binder and yet I feeled that there is something is not covered. I read through Matthew 5-6 and Psalm 199. I am happy and yet not completely peace with my heart. It is battle through out late morning to midafternoon. Rachel came to me and invited me to go to Waterfalls. I decide to spend time with her and hiking. We went out with two team and took a lot of pictures.

                                                                     Me

Rachel and Hannah

 

This is my two wonderful friends, Ara and Rachel.

 

Morning Sunrise

                       
I got up at four and decide to sleep more until four forty-five. Then I went to get coffee and went up to tower. It is very foggy weather and thought there will be no sun.                 

I took couple pictures and went downstairs to lobby to spend time with the Lord. Around six fifteen, I noticed that it is getting lighter. I decided to try again to see if I can get sunrise pictures. Sure enough, there is sun rising.

It is amazing how beautiful the fog dissolve away as sun is rising. I am grateful to God how he brought beautiful creation to remind me that He is Real.



Journey Northwood Day One

I woke up around nine instead of waking up at seven. I went to eat brunch at ten after I got ready. Then I make vanilla caramel coffee, onward to spend day with God in two rooms. One room that has table is very quiet and have a wonderful view of Northwood.

As I spend time with God in the morning, I am reading on Prepare Your Heart to Seek the Lord. I cried out to God to give me a heart that desires Him and reveal any things that hinder our relationship. More I read about to prepare your heart, two questions really convicted my heart.

Am I prepared to seek the Lord for the rest of my life or simply seven day Journey?

Do I desire God enough to set aside time for fasting?

 

 

 I came to the Measure Your Love for God. As I reading, I came to the sentence that also convicted in my heart. Your love for the Lord can be determined by honestly evaluating the true delights of your heart. Even good activities can be wrong if they give you more delight than Godly pursuits.
This is my honestly result.

 In the afternoon, I am on reading Search Out Six Wrong Heart Conditions. I allow God to thoroughly search My heart and convict me in my wrong heart. I wrote and prayed personal letter to God as in how do I want God to heal and transform my heart on this journey.
Heart One: Do I have A Murmuring Heart? Yes

After I finishes with Murmuring heart, I took break to go outside. I almost step up this extreme tiny baby frog. I can't believe how God made this tiny little frog. I let it go near the waterfall.

Tomorrow I will be getting up before sunrise to take pictures.